Young Child

Young Child

Beautiful child, young and smart, why is it are you selling yourself stupidly cheap like this? You walk around with pride thinking you own the world, but let me remind you child, you don’t… Ladies your age are busy investing, saving on buying a house, but what do you have to show ever since you stepped in Gauteng?

You have let these lights fool you, the friends you have kept all these while, what is it that have you learned from them? You think clubbing every other weekend is “living”? Child, think again, you think dating men with cars and houses will benefit you, hm, how funny, cause let me remind you child, those are his, he has studied hard for them, worked hard for them, something that you fail to do..

What results do you have to show your parents every time you go home except for the pregnancies and infections you always have on? Are you even proud of yourself? Do you even sleep well at night? The men you always sleep with for money, do you even know where they really come from? Whom they’ve slept with? Which diseases and sexual energies they have contracted from the same people they have slept with before you?

It pains me child to see you sell yourself cheap like this... You are young, there is still hope for you, clubbing will never land you a degree, no, and the men you sleep with will give you money, yes, but not only that, but unwanted diseases as well, turn away from the negative lifestyle you living, drop all those party buddies you have, they are not your friends..

Do what your parents have sent you to do, these lights you see, the clubs, the money, the cars and houses that aren’t even yours, you will die and leave them here if you keep leading that negative lifestyle… step up child, fix yourself, fix your life, there still is time…

My Unborn Daughter

You will enter my womb and make my life complete and whole. It will be greater blessing than what I ever could ask. I can almost imagine you in my mind. Beautiful, Happy, Bouncing, flashing a smile so kind. Feeling you flutter is a sensation like no other. It will do wonders for the joy of soon-2-be ur mom! You will create a glow in me I never knew I would see. It is true happiness that sets me on cloud nine manifested deep inside of me! You will be my soul, my heart, and my wonder. I pray we create a bond that no one can put asunder. You will be a designers' original! A creation from the King! I can hardly wait for you to enter the world and see the joy you bring. Sweet baby of mine, you will be a magnificent gift from above. Living proof of how your father and I have shared our love. I hope you have your fathers' eyes then you will go into the world able to look at all things wise. I hope you inherit my ability to plan. With that you will be able to face all things in life as a strong woman or man.


 I hope you receive from your father his selfless ways. For this the Heavenly Father will bless you, as he did him, all of your days. I hope you learn from me, spirit and let no one take it. Believe me you will need it in life, and many will try to break it. But with that spirit you must have your father's center. With that you will be cautious of any door you enter. I want you to have my curiosity. There's nothing wrong with questions you may blurt! But receive your fathers' discernment, so you'll know when to let go before getting hurt. Have my big heart; know what emotions are and how to be real. Share your fathers' strength so you can handle what you feel. Share my sense of humor! Laugh a lot it helps you through life. Share your fathers' sense of duty. Know how to be serious and take strife. I'm emotional so I tell you its okay to blubber once and a while like your Mom. But learn to develop what your father has; an excellent sense of calm. But most of all the things I wish for your father and I to share. I wish we teach you to love, respect, strength of mind, and to care. These are my feelings, wishes and hopes for you. You make my heart and soul sing! I will welcome you to the world and thank you for the joy, my little queen...

My Beloved

for the past few weeks things have been tough between us, we would argue over small things, get mad at each other for no reason.

Come to think of it, it only made me realize a few things about you, some of them: you been patient with me, and you were there whenever i needed some comfort.

It takes people a lifetime to realize wath they want, and maybe then its late for them to have it,,, but it took me 9full months to know its you i wanna spend ma whole life with.

you my all time favorite man, i do stupid things,,, yes, and yet u forgive me, I yell at u, get mad at you for no reason but you are patient with me and give me another go.

i'm willing now to be with you, through thick n thing,,, if its a mountain then i choose to climb it with you so we face that downfall together.

I'd believe you deserved better, and that i wasn't that better for you,,, but no. its not about deserving better or not,,, but about where you leading your life,,, and who you leading your life with, its about commitment, giving you my all,,, and at the end of the day it is about giving the greatest gift and that is the love i give u.

Without a doubt, i love you, and always will. i'm sorry i always hurt you!!

Miss You

I had the courage of telling him how I felt this morning, I had to do it, or so I think...

"Sorry I couldn't answer your call earlier this morning, but I think its best we stop talking, its for the best, or at least I think so, I'm falling for you, and it is happening so fast that it ends up feeling wrong, I don't wanna end up being hurt, I'd hate to see myself going thru that road, so for my sake, the less contact we keep the better.."

I texted!!It then hit me how much I've messed up something that felt so real for that while and I had to post a status meant for him saying 

"Remember that stupid inbox I sent u sayin we shudnt keep contact??

Truth is I miss talkin to u...I miss u"

And write now I wish he sees it and responds☹

Life Above All

.....and then it made sense for a while why I had to look at it with a different eye, for i had seen it to be perfect, and the question now; was is it really? i thought of it slowly, carefully and deeply... i had to or at least    i thought so...the moment i dreamed of was now happening, butterflies i did feel, and at that time it felt so good as thou i owned the world....

it was just a few minutes left till i brought to the world new life...precious life a handsome life, for i had carried him for too long now, seven full months, that is long, for during that period i had already learned to be a mom, i had even learned what the word RESPONSIBILITY meant....it was now time, i felt it, the harder i pushed, the more i felt it....

a baby boy it was, healthy, beautiful, tiny little fingers, i held him, so close, my son i said to myself; God had blessed me with a beautiful lil champ, the only thing that felt real to me at that moment...i love him, a blessing in disguise and as long as i have him, everything feels worth living for...